To Try or not to TRY......dealing with miscarriage after a miscarriage

You always feel empathy for the woman who has told you she has had one but its nothing compared to actually having one.

Its been over a year since I lost my twins and still the feelings and memories are sour! This new wall even though transparent has been formed and now I just watch on the other side as new pregnancies are announced.  I've never even imagined ME, having a miscarriage. it could be that a humanly normal thing that we do when we think, "Nah that cant happen to me".  Thank goodness its a transparent wall, because that can be broken easily.

While shopping my favorite supermarket, WHOLE FOODS of course, I seen  preggo after preggo, baby after baby, they are screaming at me! My oldest daughter performed and guess what?! A woman with twins walked by and i just gazed. I want a baby! I want MORE babies. My dream of having many children and my husbands love and want for more children as entered a new realm.

So here goes the journey hold on to your hats because I have quite a story to tell. I have decided to try to get my PCOS under control. I don't know about taking a visit to that good old fertility clinic again something about it just makes me feel so stressed!  Happy MONDAY!! See you next time!