How can someone shoot fire fighters during the outage of a fire. Two firefighters killed and few injured on Christmas eve.  Read the link below. Some world we live in, makes you wonder if having more kids is even fair!!!

http://news.yahoo.com/blogs/lookout/two-firefighters-shot-killed-while-responding-webster-n-163105823.html

Here's my dinner for tonight whats yours????

I wrote and posted this today on my face book. I don't think i can comment much right now i'm very emotional. I got the text from my husband while with my local homeschoolers and the library. Chills all over my body.

So you had a normal day you dropped off you child to school got in your car and drove way. While waiting at the light you are thinking about what will be for dinner, that you have to pick up gifts for your child class, that you will have a long day of work, or you are just thinking all the years of infertility you finally are just glad to have a moment like this, watching your child run to her or his class happily. Then you get a text, email., phone call, the news, or someone tells you, YOUR CHILD'S SCHOOL has been attacked 27 people dead and mostly children......

AT that very moment LIFE STOPS, Your stomach gets tight and your throat become dry and forms that knot, you know that knot where you feel you can barely swallow. You get goosebumps, you begin to sweat, eyes are moving back and forth, mind racing, heart speeding. That gut wrenching feeling. ~M. Scott~

My heart is so heavy... so so heavy

Connecticut SHOOTING 27 people murdered. about 20 are children.

To Try or not to TRY......dealing with miscarriage after a miscarriage

You always feel empathy for the woman who has told you she has had one but its nothing compared to actually having one.

Its been over a year since I lost my twins and still the feelings and memories are sour! This new wall even though transparent has been formed and now I just watch on the other side as new pregnancies are announced.  I've never even imagined ME, having a miscarriage. it could be that a humanly normal thing that we do when we think, "Nah that cant happen to me".  Thank goodness its a transparent wall, because that can be broken easily.

While shopping my favorite supermarket, WHOLE FOODS of course, I seen  preggo after preggo, baby after baby, they are screaming at me! My oldest daughter performed and guess what?! A woman with twins walked by and i just gazed. I want a baby! I want MORE babies. My dream of having many children and my husbands love and want for more children as entered a new realm.

So here goes the journey hold on to your hats because I have quite a story to tell. I have decided to try to get my PCOS under control. I don't know about taking a visit to that good old fertility clinic again something about it just makes me feel so stressed!  Happy MONDAY!! See you next time!

I'm such a bad blogger

So I signed in to read a fellow bloggers, blog and here I realized I've yet again to failed to keep up with my own! I have so much information and experiences to share but I realize it hard to keep up with all these social sites and have live your life as an everything MOM... you know the mom that does EVERYTHING. I've just been able to really verbalize and truly "get past" my miscarriage of twin boys last year! Yea that was a true test. I am still HURT. It felt like my heart was ripped out stomped on, chewed and spit out on hard concrete and put back in my chest to bare the strife and keep moving! I mean it really hurt. I will talk about that topic in future blogs. Hope everyone is having a Great start in this new year!!!! Will post soon!

The NewlyWed Game

I don't even know what the GSN network is but this show is interesting. Newly-Weds showing they really don't know each other like they think... they will learn after these questions. Like finding out your wife had more than one partner..... Are you watching?

The Mind of a Pathological Liar

LIERS


Hmmm..........DO YOU know a pathological liar....I sure do and the weirdest thing is that they will keep going on even if you have a look of disbelief.