I'm such a bad blogger

So I signed in to read a fellow bloggers, blog and here I realized I've yet again to failed to keep up with my own! I have so much information and experiences to share but I realize it hard to keep up with all these social sites and have live your life as an everything MOM... you know the mom that does EVERYTHING. I've just been able to really verbalize and truly "get past" my miscarriage of twin boys last year! Yea that was a true test. I am still HURT. It felt like my heart was ripped out stomped on, chewed and spit out on hard concrete and put back in my chest to bare the strife and keep moving! I mean it really hurt. I will talk about that topic in future blogs. Hope everyone is having a Great start in this new year!!!! Will post soon!

Its Been a while...

Wow its been a while i have become overwhelmed with work, people, events, schoool, and moving, and move work, it was to the point i had to send an email and put everyone on HOLD. Seriously. I need a break. TO recollect myself, to stop and smell the roses and to just enjoy mu husband and daughter not squeezing them into a schedule! I will be writing more often I promise!!!!! for who ever reads this I hope all is well!!!!

To live or Not to Live, that is the Question....

One of the most important things a Person should have are goals. Without goals what really is your purpose? Why are you getting up everyday? Sometimes I find a lot of people fall into this dead routine, where all dreams and aspirations disintegrate and they become living zombies. Work pay bills,work pay bills. If that is the case you might as well shot yourself, do you know realize that we are intellectual and spiritual beings? We feed of emotions, gratitude, music, life, and God!! So people please become alive...."start asking yourself where am I now?, is this all i want in life?, and What am i doing to get where i want to be?"...... LIVE LIFE, Truly define that.... Muuuaahhhh!

I have to Go and work on one of my goals right now! and that's studying to get an A on both upcoming exams!!!!

THe Black and White of things

Scenario: A black guy walks by the old white lady clutches her bag. A white guys walks by the old white lady doesn't even pay him any attention even though he has tattoos,red contacts, and tattered clothes.

Scenario if it were MO (me): a black guy walks by I clutch my purse, a white guy walks buy, i clutch my purse, a chines guy walks by, i clutch my purse,a woman walks by i clutch my purse, and if your BEHIND walks too close i might trip you.

Scenario: This actually happened to me, so I'm pulling up to a parking space in an upscale mall. two while ladies were walking away from their truck before i decided to park next to them. i jump out my car, the two hags turn around and double check to see if the door was locked after they seen me?? um I was dressed appropriately (trust some days i can look like a straight up BUM), my car obviously cost more than theirs, damn my wedding ring could damn near blind them.......now what could i have possible done to their car? I could be a millionaire it wouldn't matter I am not sorry that i cant run from my skin, i cant change it for you, and i WILL NOT change if i could, I'm not sorry that i speak better than you, I'm not sorry if you thought my people would always be below you, I am sorry that you didn't get to meet me in your earlier life because I believe I would changed your view on BLACKS. I am so proud of who I am where I came from so don't be intimidated well maybe you should depending how u approach me....

To Be or NOT to BE...... A GOd Parent that is

When was the last time you spoken to your God Parent? I think i can say for many of us It has been YEARS. Why the heck do we need God Parents anyway? To be honest I don't really thing half the people even know the duty of one. Is it to start a college fund help damn near raise the child? Shower the child with gifts after gifts after gifts. TO be honest i think that there is too much expected from a God parent and that is why a lot of them end up never really developing a relationship with the child or just stops where it started at the christening or baptism. I even think there are a lot of God Parents who just put too much on themselves. On the religious side, they are to encourage and help the growth and development of the child's FAITH. Yes you heard it right. To Keep them in their prayers, and to be able to support the parents by doing just that. I can tell you right now my God mother was the best i could ever had she was there when I needed her most she prayed for me, loved me unconditionally and fed me LOL with this miraculous little life I had inside me as a teenager. She sat down and talked to me she wanted to understand what i been through how I felt and to make sure my goal for college and career never ever became weak or distant. Which it NEVER did too strong for that. That is some one I love and care for. Out of the few that I have that is the only one I know. Same goes for my daughter. She knows who her God Mommy is. She knows that she can go to her to talk to and just maybe relax when she feels i and my husband are just getting on her nerves. Trev was chosen because she was young LIKE me had same upbringing like me and believed in the same things as I. I made the best choice. Some time she will call and say i been a bad God mommy i haven't been taking her every weekend. You know what I say? Girl that is OK. BRI has a MOM and a DAD and we are doing our JOB. She knows who you are and know what part you play. MOST like the CHILD will NEED them IN THEIR TEENAGE and PRE TEEN age years. SO those of you who feel God parents are to pick up your SLACK please STOP IT. THOSE of you who are in your god child's life and continue to do so.. I GIVE U a PAT on the BACK........ THOSE of you who have been asked, please take a seat back and think do you really want to do it? Don't take too many you will end up being neglectful. TO be asked is an honor. To keep accepting is just foolish. I can not wait for my one OFFICIAL God daughter becomes older so we can have real one on one talk.

Got this off a website...........

Christian Responsibilities of a Godparent

1. Pray for your godchild regularly
2. Set an example of Christian living
3. Help him/her to grow in the faith of God, Father, Son and Holy Spirit, in which he was baptized
4. Give every encouragement to follow Christ and fight against evil
5. Help your godchild to look forward to confirmation.